Well I am finding out how bad it really is. I spoke with Joshs child development teacher. He has made it to class 2 times in the last 4 weeks. Ya see teachers ease has benn down now for about 5 weeks, and i have received no calls from the school, but they are looking at me right now like i am the bad person. And the only reason I found out is because the computer did call my house Friday, and i checked on it Monday. Josh went to his room last night and didnt come out at all except to eat. this morning I woke him up at 7:00-7:10 and then at 7:20 I told him you know if you miss one day of drivers ed she is going to drop you, cause he missed the 1st week, which was understandable because it started a week before the other 9 week classes and we didnt know that. He says I know. and didnt get out of bed, at 7:30 I left, dropped off Savannah and I get a text from him saying why are you acting weird. I wrote back, weird ? he says you left without me, i said you didnt get ready, he wrote that his friend was going to get him, i said oh. he wrote you are acting like you dont care...i said Josh that is the farthest thing from the truth, you are the one that doesnt care and i cant do anything about it, unless i quit work to take him to every class, which is out of the question, we are definitly a 2 person income family, and although i think on one hand we can move to the ghetto and i can do just that walk him every day to each class, but on the other hand i think why...why should we all suffer cause he cant make it to class. I get him up every day and make sure he gets to school on time, when is some of the responsibility on him. I bought him an alarm clock and told him i leave at 7:30 if he wants a ride be ready.
Yes Michelle we have a deal that we will stay here until he graduates, Eric has the same thought we should just move back to Cali if he is going to act like this. I say it will be worse if we go back on our decision. I dont know what to do, I have taken everything he owns away from him down to a bed and dresser and blankets, it doesnt phase him. so i take away the things i think are important to him, the computer, video games, phone. The things that are going through my head now are drug test him !!! Eric says no, i say what is he doing while he is ditching (he says going to the park my himself) BULL ... I know what I did when I ditched. I am so blue right now, and feel like such a failure. And you know what sucks the most....I thought I knew him, the Josh I knew didnt ditch. I guess I dont know him. and do i really want to drug test him and find out that hes smoking pot, that will crush me, absulutly crush me. Would you drug test your son/daighter if you thought something was up ???
Thanks for letting me ramble on it makes me feel better...