9 years ago today was the day, I was at my best friend Donna's and I got a phone call saying Jason was in a head on accident, he was in a coma and Jimmy his best friend had passed away. My friend Matt drove me to Taft where he was, and where I sat for the next day, sleepless and devastated that the love of my life was laying there not waking up and with very little hope of ever doing so. I kept calling his name, cause I felt he could hear me, only when I called his name his eyes would attempt to open. Josh was 3 weeks away from being 6 and had very little idea of what was happening. Jason was so swolen they took him in for his 3rd surgery, they were going to cut open his stomach and place a plastic bag so there was more room. At 11:11 Am on the 8th of August they pronounced him dead, and my whole world shattered, I lost it, they asked if I wanted to say goodbye, I remember walking in the room, and the next thing I knew I was laying on the floor, I just stayed there and cried, Jasons Aunt and Uncle came in and got me.My friend Donna Ogawa was flying in from Oregon, I had to go to the airport to get her, it was 2:30, she got off the plane and I ran to her and hugged her for what seemed like an eternity and told her he was gone. Me and Missy (Jimmys wife) now had a double funeral to prepare for. That week was the hardest week of my life and with family and friends I got through and continue to get through it. I still have my momemts where I just break down, but I have awesome friends and family that are always there to catch me when I fall. I still don't understand....I know it is inevitable but WHY??????????
The hardest thing about moving from California was not being able to go to the cemetary anymore. I miss going and sitting and talking, putting flowers, and other little things I know he would like. I miss him so much...
I love you Jay and I miss you, watch over your son and don't let anything happen to him, I know you are hear with us, I can fell your presence at times, and there are times that I can smell you, god I love that smell. Your son has grown into such an awesome young man and has a heart of gold just like his daddy. Til we are together again Jay you are forever in our hearts........